Hi everyone, its been a while. I think this might be the largest time gap between posts. I've had a tough time with this entry, coming back to it from time to time over the last several months. Every time I finished editing I just did not like it and scrapped it. Hopefully take 4 is the charm, lets get into it. Late in 2023 I became a 10 year survivor and also turned 30. It was a deep time of reflection for me. There were many questions I asked myself, but the most challenging ones included: Why am I still here? Am I happy? What changes do I need to make to become happier? Am I ready to make those changes? What are my goals? What has gone well these last 10 years? What do I want to do better going forward? Very deep, uncomfortable topics and questions I had been stressing about, but avoiding for years. It was both empowering and deeply saddening to reflect on these topics. I hated to admit it at the time, but I was very unhappy. I was going through the motions. I was survivi