This year things were going so well. I had clear scan after clear scan. We moved the scan frequency to every four months because I was 3 years out from last finishing treatment and we were feeling like I was "safe". I was feeling the best I have since being diagnosed. I had a great streak going. Three and a half years of an anxiety inducing scan every three months that was fortunately clear every time. Unfortunately that streak just ended. With this being my fourth recurrence, it would seem that this would become easier, but this one was as hard if not worse than them all. Let's walk through how we got here. In late September I was laying in bed watching tv when I happened to feel a lump in my arm. It wasn't too large of a lump; around the size of peanut. Immediate panic set in. So many questions/doubts/concerns filled my head as I layed there for what must have been hours. Could it be back? How long has this been there? How could I not notice this earlier? It's b...